信任來得不易；
一旦失去了，
就很難很難找得回來。。。

還記得，
一個挺要好的朋友曾經告訴我：
“笑要打從心底笑。”
直到今天，
我還是牢牢地銘記在心。
可能是我還在找尋吧。
我真的很累了。

"God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble.
Therefore we wil not fear,
though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea."
- Psalms 46:1-2

Thank you celest! :)
It's great meeting up with you:)
And thanks for your encouragements :)
Yups. There'll be a way!! :)

我有點納悶的感覺。
不曉得我怎么了。
剛剛在補習時，
我忽然想起了中學的那些時光。
我發現我好懷念中學的日子。
至少，那時我比現在自由自在多了。
我現在為我應該作的決定還在懊惱中。
好希望我能快點把這一切解決。
嘉欣要開開心心的！！

I have been thinking.
Since my dad wants to send me for further studies, why does it matter what kind of degree I get now?
Why spend so much on a private degree?
Maybe going back to Malaysia is a good choice.
*shrugs*
But I would miss my life and friends here very badly de lorhs.
haha.. I am speaking as though I am never coming back :S
Going to talk to Dad about this tonight.
Wish me luck.

It's a Monday night only.
I am already feeling so worn-out.
Sighs.
How am I going to last the week?
I have been so stressed out and up by all the decisions that I have to make.
But somehow, it feels like my dad is trying to decide my future for me.
I don't like that.
I don't like people interfering with my plans nor decisions, no matter how lost I am.
I just need useful advices and encouragements.
Not pressure or any brainwashing of any sort.

I feel so tired.
And scared; I am afraid that one wrong step at this turning point of my life would lead to another mistake in my life.
I have made enough mistakes to almost ruin my own future.
Chatted with Zin Htet today.
He told me that there are no wrong decisions; I'll just have to focus on making it right.
*shrugs* I just want to make a good decision.
Not a rash, random one; like what I always do.
I am a rather, or rather, VERY stubborn person.
That's like a well-known fact for people who have gotten acquainted with me before.
At times, I can be hopelessly stubborn.
haha..

My dad is thinking of me goin to PSB academy - the prison lookalike school in my opinion.
Then after that send me overseas for further studies.
Goodness! Ask anyone who knows me; Jiaxin studying beyond a Bachelor Degree?!
That would be like a miracle lah!
At least, for now I have no intention of studying beyond a Bachelor Degree.
I guess, I am really not cut out for studying.
First, I have no intelligence to excel.
And secondly, I am not rich.
That's like super sad can! - brainless and poor.
SOBS.

Oh! Anyway, I have resolved to put my heart into studying.
but that's provided that any school wants me.
And, though I have decided for now, that I wouldnt wanna study beyond a bachelor degree, I might be going to take up counselling for it has always been my dream :)
Ahh wells.. Or maybe, I can continue dreaming :D

I am still lost.
whatever should I be doing now?
I am still hesitating as to which step I should take next.
For I am reminded by my past that any wrong step or any rash decision would affect my future paths.
Sighs.
Any idea what I should do? :/

Oh wells.. Here's a shoutout to my boyfren who is having his exams tml.
hope he gets to see it in time.
ALL THE BEST!! ^^

Yups.
I am back from the PSB Academy.
Urms.. I might be able to start school in August.
Don't know if it's a good thing.
I don't quite like the campus.
It looks like a prison to me.
It's a new campus.
But it really looks like a prison to me! :((
And it's so faraway from my home.
*sobs*
Is this really what I want?
Is this what I really should be going for? :((
sighs. I am feeling lost again.

A big thank you to Flor for your encouragements.
But you didnt have to leave that tag here lahs.
It's kind of embarrassing :p
And to my boyfren, who told me that his happiness wasn't based on anything else but loving me :) *love you!*

Hmm.. I am going to miss my boyfriend lahs.
he's like going for Jesus Heals and after which he'll be having his exams.
And most prob, after his exams, he would be going out with his friends.
Sobs. When will I get to see him?!! :/

Later I'll be going down to PSB Academy to apply for my course.
Sighs. It's the first time I am going alone to do things lor.
how sad can!
hope the people will be friendly enough :)
*pray hard*

I have NOTHING to do.
Goodness me.
I am becoming a whiner :(
When my schedule is too full, I whine.
And when it is so slack, I whine about having nothing to do.
I've just finished revising one chapter of economics.
And I am feeling darn bored :(

And so, I sat in my room, thinking.
I think alot.
I THINK?
Hehs.
And sometimes, it's about the ridiculous stuffs.
*shrugs*

I am kind of feeling a bitbit insecure about myself.
I am like being abit not contented about my life.
Oh wells. I guess, the envious feeling is back again.
ahh. Maybe I should think so much.

Something good about today : No meowmeow.
BUT! it's boring day :(

I am Bored:(

You Are 90% Real

There's hardly a person on this earth more real than you are. You have no problem showing people who you are, flaws and all. For you, there couldn't be any other way. Because it's way too stressful to live an inauthentic life. You're very comfortable with yourself. And because of this, you're able to live an exciting, interesting, and challenging life.

How Real Are You?

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. In relationships, you tend to be a bit selfish. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

You are Milk Chocolate

A total dreamer, you spend most of your time with your head in the clouds. You often think of the future, and you are always working toward your ideal life. Also nostalgic, you rarely forget a meaningful moment... even those from long ago.

What Kind of Chocolate Are You?

You Are A Woman!

Congratulations, you've made it to adulthood. You're emotionally mature, responsible, and unlikely to act out. You accept that life is hard - and do your best to keep things upbeat. This makes you the perfect girlfriend... or even wife!

Are You A Girl Or a Woman?

Here's a happy post! ^^

Here's a happy post :)
For my boyfriend cheered me up after that not-so-good incident last night.
He's sooooooo cute lahs.
He was like complaining that "we have been apart for 29 hrs ! 1740 mins! 104400 secs!" at the wee hours of 2am.
He never fails to make me smile.
And perhaps, he's all I need now :)
I thank God for blessing me with a great boyfriend :)

Fake Front

Uh no.
That heading was not meant to refer to myself.
Hmm.. I kind of not like people with fake fronts.
Why can't there be more real people?
Why must there even be a front?
It's what made my family so unpredictably predictable.
Ok. That was rather random.
I was just talking in my own language; if you can understand it, then good for you.
If not, don't bother thinking about it, it's not sth philosophical to think it over anyways.

I think this fake front stuffs are starting to build their pressure on me.
Ah.. but perhaps, it has all along been been doing that?
Ha..
I don't know.
I just used my whole night to think everything through after a bomb just exploded at home last night.
I realised some things.
It's not that I dislike studying.
True enough, I have sometimes jokingly said that my ambition is to be a tai-tai.
But I don't think that is what I really want yet.
I realised that I am actually ok with studying, but it's the circumstances that forced me to dislike getting into an university and even shuddering at the thought of furthering my studies.
I hate it when that someone says " oh.. you shouldn't worry so much about the money issues.. you just concentrate on studying properly."
That sounds nice right?
Like a caring character and all.
But not when that someone feels like blasting off at you, that someone will go, "don't forget you're living off me; I am the ONE paying for your studies and everything. And if I can create you, I can destroy you as well."
Whatever lah. I am sick of hearing all of that shit already lorhs.
:(

Ah wells.. I am done with releasing all the stress in me.
Do not think too much about this post.
I am just looking for an outlet.
For I know bottling up too much can lead me to depression.
And I am not someone who puts on a fake front and hides everything ugly that is in me from the outside world.

*new blogskin*

Yay. I just felt like changing a new blogskin :)
I know green hasnt really been my colour.
But I quite like the look of this particular one.
And so, TADA! :D

today's a good day!
Boyfriend came over to find me despite having to take the public bus and bear with the stupid hot sun.
He's so nice right?
Ah wells.. He played computer games whilst I got ready.
I took a rather long time. hehs.
But he's no better; he doesn't stop playing once he started :P
We went to Causeway point intending to watch Transformers.
Saw MDM KHOO - so cool standing by the side :X
No evening tickets for our movie and we settled for the thai horror 13 games of death.
Or whatever it is called lah.
Don't go for the show.
It's not really worth the money lorhs.
It's a superultra POOR imitation good of SAW.
And the plot is overly ridiculous -__-
*shakes head in disapproval*

After the movie, Jer followed me home for din din.
Saw Dad at the interchange again.
On the bus, me and jer were doing stupid things, making stupid comments.
Haha.. Laughed till stomach was aching.
Reached home, waited for dinner to start.
My boyfriend is a LAZY guy lo.
Still need me to peel prawns for him.
ok. He DIN ask me to; I did it of my OWN ACCORD :P
But still, he is LAZY.
After din din, watched teevee and ate nicenice taiwan mangoes:D
After which, I accompanied my boyfriend to the busstop outside the Singapore Customs.
I know I was kind of a pest for insisting to accompany you..
but all I want was to spend more time with you.
Somehow, every minute, every second matters to me.
ALOT. :)
Thanks for being so nice today :)
I wove you lots BOYFREN! ^^

* Monday Blues *

I am having the Monday Blues.
Haha. how ironical since I dont even have to go to school or do anything :S

Me and Jer are One and a Half years old lo.
Happy 18 mthsery to Us! ^^

From today onwards, I am resolved to start doing small things with great love :)

* TIRED *

I am UPSET.
I know I mood swing ALOT and am very Unreasonable.
Don't need anyone to remind me.
I know it myself :S
sighs.

My tuition schedule is changed.
So this is how it goes,
Tentatively..
Monday evenings - dates with MEOWMEOW.
Tuesday afternoons - Kelvin's Sister and Evening till late night at the Taiwanese.
Wednesday - From Noon till Late night at the Taiwanese.
Thursday afternoons - Kelvin's Sister again, and Nights with MEOWMEOW.
Saturday: Morning till evening at the Taiwanese.
Sunday- afternoons at the Taiwanese till Night.

There goes my life man. :(
I have too much time in the first place, I think.
Sighs. Maybe this is for the better :S *shrugs*

* Happy Friday *

I am a HAPPY GIRL today.
Tho I didn't get to watch Surf's Up.
but Hot Fuzz wasn't a bad choice.
I enjoyed it all the same.
And, my boyfriend is really niceeeeeee to me today.
ok. he is normally very nice already.
But I just feel that he's exceptionally nice today.
HA. I think it's the mood. :D *hehs*

My working life will start from tml.
*sighs*
It wud mean LESS SLEEP, MORE FATS INTAKE.
'cause I'll hafta wake up VERY early and they feed me real good :(
Anyone wanna join me for an outdoor exercise routine soon?! :((

* I want ... *

I want .........
A sony ericsson K810i phone!
haha.. It seems nice?
I don't know *shrugs*
Just saw the advertisement on the teevee :D

最近，我正在为我的书起笔。
目前。。。还在写自序。哈哈。。我承认，是有点慢啦！
但，好过没有动笔，不是吗？
这本大概会是我自己的爱情小说吧。
我一直以来，都想拥有一本专属自己的爱情小说。
希望我能做得到！
我认为啊。。。人与人之间的相遇是很奥妙的。
你可否记得，你和你的另一半是如何相遇的呢？
是否。。跟我一样。。？
我起初见到他时，对他是种爱慕。
渐渐的，爱慕转为暗恋。
在我心中，他也从一个我爱慕的人“升职”到了我认为的完美情人。
之后，我还以为我永远只能暗恋他；因为他的周遭总有许多美女环绕着。
哪知，我竟然能够与他成为情侶。
现在回想起来，总觉得这一切发生得太奥妙了。

Haha.. The above was just random thoughts :)
Sighhs.. My dad seems keen on me going to Poly.
I am quite against that route.
Oh wells.. perhaps I am just stubborn or what.
*shrugs*
I WANNA TAKE COUNSELLING!! :(

* back to normal, I guess? *

Hmms.. I am quite back to normal.
I guess?
Went to the Church near my home.
Quite like today's sermon.
I actually went to talk to the church counsellor :)
Oh wells.. I am feeling much much better than before :)

Let me update on my week.

MON - WED : like nothing leh...
Just unhappiness :(

Thurs : Jer came over to keep me company.
Then I broke down.
Real bad!
Glad that he's around.
Thanks for hugging me tight and telling me that I'll always have you no matter what :)

Friday : Boyfren came over again.
He played on my com whilst I got ready to go out.
HE OVERSPENT MY ZOO MONEY lah! *pouts*
Oh wells. Then we went for "fantastic four"
It's soooooooooooo nice!
Love it so much!! ^^
I seriously think Jessica Alba is really hottttt!! :D
She is soooooooo gorgeous :)

Saturday : Spent my afternoon typing dad's documents until my fingers showed signs of cramps.
Got ready to go out.. BUT MY WHITE HEELS WERENT ARD!!
*sad*
Panicked for a good half an hour before I went out MISMATCHED! :(
Got to JE and waited for Jer and his family.
They picked me up and we got to Chevrons.
My BOYFREN WAS SICK!
But he still look very good yesterday :DD *loves*
Urms.. Wedding dinner was simple.
Food was alright; but service was NO GOOD.
BUT! one thing good about yesterday, was the company :)
It's all that matters, right? :)
Psst! I realised I want a memorable wedding :) HA!

After what I have been going thru for the past two weeks..
I think I am beginning to understand myself alittle bit more.
First, I do not want to be all alone when I am sad.
When I am sad or feel like breaking down, I'll need someone to hug/lend me his/her shoulder.
Second, I do not sing when I am sad.
And I only sing when I am feeling happy :)
I still not very in the mood to open my mouth to sing,
tho I do feel fine now :)

Special Thanks to Flor and Peiling who showed their concerns..
I was really touched :)
And A big thanks to my boyfren, who has been always there for me and loving me :)

I have a confession to make.. :)

I have a confession to make!! :DD

我想说的是。。。
我的男友真的很好，很棒！
我一直觉得啊。。 爱我是个很累很累的事
不是我想太多哦！
我的前男友也是这么说我的；难怪他会甩掉我。
唉。。。
我真的真的觉得我的男友，林川凯，是这世界上最好的！！
每当我伤心或遇到不开心的事时，
他总会在第一时间安慰我，并尽全力来逗我开心。

还记得Ａ水准成绩放榜时。。
我看到自己的烂成绩，我真的伤心透顶。
但，死爱面子的自己，却硬逼自己把情绪压抑着。
他，就在不远处等着我。
不知怎么的，看到他。。心中所有的情绪都在一瞬间涌上心头。
眼泪也豪无自主地夺眶而出。
他的担心，他的不知所措，都满满地写在脸上。
我想，他大概从来没见过可以哭得那么难看的的人吧。
我记得，他陪着我与我的朋友去ＫＴＶ。。可怜的他并没什么玩到，只是默默地在我身旁陪着我。
我还记得，他很体贴地想请我吃我最爱的冰淇淋。

虽然，我的男朋友有时也会让我伤心，让我难过，让我生气，
但，往往都是他这些贴心的小动作，这些出自内心的关心。。。让我内心总是暖暖的。
在此，我想对我最爱，最重要的他说声谢谢。
以及告诉他：我真的很爱你！

十一掇玫瑰花 ^^

又是星期一了。
生活还蛮无味的，一点惊喜也没有。

今天，我终于把“微笑 ” 看完了。
虽然，我起初还蛮抗拒这部戏的，但是，我上隐了！！
天啊！这部戏可说是扣人心弦啊！
看到最后的几集，那些感人的情节，竟让我的眼泪直流。

哈哈！我突然想到一件事！
我也想要十一朵玫瑰花！！
你可知道。。 十一朵玫瑰花的花语是什么？？
它的花语是。。 “一生一世只爱你一个”
很感人对不对？

我真的很佩服想出花语的人。。
或许，有些人会觉得这些花语都是一派胡言。
我就不以为然啊！
让我来为那些不懂得欣赏花语的人指点指点吧！
我认为啊！
花语是发明给不懂得表达爱意的男人。
同时，也是给想表达爱意的男人。
不难懂吧！：D

PS: I miss my hubby! :'(

*my boyfren made me really happy *

This entry was meant for yesterday.
but I was too tired when I got home.
And so, I am blogging only now.

Went over to find BF.
Went his place first.
Bobby was abit madmad de.
but ya, cause he is cute, he is forgiven.
Then we dropped by the Golf place.
Boyfren is goin to take up golf lessons :D
then we went to shingshong... (as in sing song :DDDD)
SOOOO fun!! ^^
I was super duper high after.
Then we went his mummie's shop to have din din.
After which, his daddy came also, but no more din din lers.
So, me n bf, despite being full, we went for our second dinner :D
poor bf; he cldnt eat alot.. cause he is having a stupid ulcer. :((
*sayang* I hope that your ulcer will go away soon :DD

:(

這几天好像没什么心情。
不知为什么。
就有种闷闷不乐的心情。
好奇怪哦！
我自己也不明白；有没有人能告诉我？

最近，我也好像没有了灵感写作。。。
那感觉，带着空虚，带着无助。
那感觉，是有点难受。。。
似乎。。。我失去了方向。
能不能告诉我。。我到底怎么了？！

有时，我真的很好奇。。。
爱一个人，我们到底要带着什么心情？
爱一个人，我们到底要抱者什么期待？
我真的不晓得嘞！
能不能有人能告诉我？ :)

*sigh*

我想念。。。
我是多么希望一切都能永恒地持續下去。。。
可以嗎？
I expect too much, perhaps?

Wells.. anyways! I have gotten my shrek hairband! :)
Sis bought it for me! ^^
So sweet can! :D
Oh wells.. Shrek3 is no good.
Sighs.
SICK TODAY >.<
sian.. maybe can go find sth to do after tuition :)

:|

Went meet Jer.
Ate BakKuteh with him and his friends.
Went home sleep.
Then went his popo's place.
Went his mummy's shop to eat dinner.
Then went citysquare for SUMOLAH - my first malay movie.
And here I am back in Singapore again.

I have got this STRONG urge to pop by some petshop and get that something which I have always wanted.
And maybe I will when I have the time :/

PS : Jer.. I am sorry for moodswinging on you today :(
Forgive me hao mah?

WE ARE SEVENTEEN! :D

Ok. That heading was meant for yesterday.
I have lots to update man.
Forgive me, I have to backtrack:)

Thursday!
Had tuition with meowmeow.
AND I NEARLY GOT KILLED BY HIM WITH A COMPASS.
no kidding ok?
IT'S THAT SERIOUS. :(

Alrights.
But the best part came, when I had to get to CWP to meet Esther and Minghong.
Hmmm.. They made me went on a treasure hunt in the mall and the library.
Rather creative right? :)
It's a good surprise.
And the search ended up in the treasure trove of knowledge.
And we cut the cake and eating ther..
And guess what?!!
We got caught on Candid Camera.
HEHS.
Oh wells.. I love my pressies..
A very sweet bracelet and a personalised umbrella.
I'll be bringing the umbrella out very often if it rains :DDD
IT'S MINE! MINE! MINE! :DDDDDDD
*happy*
A BIG BIG THANKYOU TO STER and HONG!! :DDDD

Friday: Yups.. Our 17th mthsery :DDD
Went to find my boyfren who OVERSLEPT and didn't go school.
HEES.
HmmMm.. We went to collect tix for Pirates3 and went for lunch @ stonegrill.
The food was good :)
BUt we kind of ordered too much and wasted them.
:P
Then slacked ard..until the movie started.
HEY PEOPLE! Pirates 3 is GREAT! GO WATCH! :DD
If I say it's nice, it's NICE! :DD
I'm almost never wrong:DD
Thank you, Jer!
For spending time with me :D
:)))))))))) * I WOVE YOU!*

I found this meaningful post on a gd fren's blog. I wanna share :D

Ten things that God won’t ask you

1. God won’t ask what kind of car you drove;
He’ll ask how many people you drove who didn’t have a car to drive in.

2. God won’t ask the square footage of your house;
He’ll ask how many people you welcomed into your home.

3. God won’t ask how much clothes you had in your closet;
He’ll ask how many you helped to clothe.

4. God won’t ask what your highest salary was;
He’ll ask if you compromised your character to obtain it.

5. God won’t ask what your job title was;
He’ll ask if you performed your job to the best of your ability.

6. God won’t ask how many friends you had;
He’ll ask how many people to whom you were a real friend.

7. God won’t ask about what neighborhood you lived with;
He’ll ask if you had loved your neighbors.

8. God won’t ask about the color of your skin;
He’ll ask if you had treated those of other skin colours well.

9. God won’t ask why it took you so long to seek Salvation;
He’ll lovingly take you to your mansion in heaven, and not to the gates of Hell.

10. God won’t ask how many people you forwarded this to;
He’ll ask if you were ashamed to pass it on to your friends.

Happy moments; praise God.
Difficult moments; seek God.
Quiet moments; worship God.
Painful moments; trust God.
Every moment; thank God.

wondering. . .

Did God give us our imperfections,
so that we will meet someone who can see us perfectly?
Do we only realise to cherish,
after we had lost everything?

SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS

If only whatever's bothering me could go away with one big long sigh . . . . . .
I wish I understand you better . . .

*blinkblink*

Had a tiring night.
but I am fine now.
thankyou peipei.
and a especially big thankyou to boyfren, who tolerated me and bothered to listen to me:)
I'll be fine soon.

:)

I would like to say a BIG THANK YOU to those who rmbed :)
Thankyou to : wquan, ade, suxian, eileen, esther, yvonne, flor, eugene, junhao, irene, szekai, jiajing, kershin, junwei,zin htet, boon and last but nt least, my own boyfren.

兩個形容。

空虛。
空洞。
虛無。

*updates first.. pictures tml*

Thursday *17may*
MY BOYFREN'S BDAY!
HE'S TWENTY LERS! ^^
Ok.. I don't know why I so high for :S
*hehs*
SOrry dear that I lied to you.
But I assure u that this is the only lie I have told you.
:)
Hmm.. I think my boyfren likes his PSP.
THough I stil think you prefer the white one *sorry*
L enjoyed my thursday.
Though..I got reminded of something that I have been running away from.
Maybe..ignorance isn't really bliss?

Friday :)
Jer's party!
Jer taught me to blow up the balloon with this machine and then tie it.
HEHS! I learnt it alrdy! :)
But fingers were sore after that :(
Then helped his mummie with some preparations of the food whilst he went out for golf.
The party was ok.
But I was stoning away.
Sorry dear.. I wasn't much of a company.
I'm too boring I guess.
*sighs* I wish I could socialise better :)
though its their party, I got to celebrate mine as well! :)
And gifts for me too:)
How nice:)
Stayed over 'cause my boyfren refused to send me home -___-

Saturday:DD
Woke up ard noon.
Bathed then went out for nice beef noodles *yummielicious!*
Then.. went his mummie's shop to cut new hairstyle and dye it.
Jer chose the hairstyle! I think its nice :)
Then his mum kinda did temp curls for me.
Urms.. I think I really don't look nice.
But my bf likes it-__-
*and now he wants me to do perm curls >.< *
Rushed back his hse to do makeup by his dasao.
then rushed back my home to get changed.
Then got on our way to the meeting place.
We got lost nd were an hour late.
*hehs*
I like the place.
愛情海餐廳
The ambience was good :)
And.. yups.. what the girls did for me is really sweet :)
And of course, I enjoyed the sabo :D
Singing on stage; lucky got bf to pei me.
The frame was perfectly sweet!!
And the red big bag frm MNG :DDDDD *loves*
Okay.. not forgetting that you darlings remembered my favourite flower :DD
*for happiness*
Thank you all so much.
Boyfren, you too..
For the trouble I have caused you and for your precious time I have wasted.
Thankyou :)
And in case, you girls never saw what I wrote.. but I still want to repeat this..
我希望我們每個人都會擁有雨過天晴后的彩紅 :)

Sunday : Met up with Yvonne .
We went to eat jap buffet!
SHOOOOOO NICE!
Did stupid things there. *hehs(
Then we went walkwalk.
GOt so tempted to buy this sundress from concept109.
but I didn't! *yay*
ZIN Htet bought me a mirror from Manzana.
Think very EX lo.
But it's really nice! THANKYOU!
OH! yvonne made me a card . SO SWEET!
THank you VON! *hugs*
THen we went Starbucks.
I had nice hot chocolate whilst VOn had nice latte :)
Then now.. home sweet home :DD

Pictures will be up soon. :)
As soon as I have the time ? :)
And I think.. I am kind of ready for more understanding?
dear.. I wanna noe you more:)

Just let me emo for today ok..?

HmmMmmm.. Alrights.. No letter from NTU.
And so, I had to send out an appeal.
I was freaking confused..
I am so lost as to what I should appeal for.
Sighs.
I feel so awful.. I feel like breaking down :'(
help..

*GRINS*

I am a HAPPY GIRL!
YES!
I am feeling such great sense of achievement! ^^
First of all, meowmeow passed all his subjects overall!
Then my taiwanese kids improved in their english!
Then.. just now during tuition wid meowmeow,
my pri5 girl msged me to tell me that she got first in class and she thanked me for that!
*high* though I didn't do much.. but I'm like super proud of them la! :DDDD
The irony is.. just last week I was feeeling super depressed over them :S

Just came home.
Had dinner with Jer and his family.
Cldn't eat much.
My stomach is not feeling tat well.
sighs. missed out on the good food:(

moooonday

Monday!
I am so tired can!
Been tiring my poor body out.
Especially my poor legs.
Hmmm.. My bf's pressies are nearly all done.
just that, I cant get the famous amos cookie cake!
Urgh. I can't make it down for payment.
:( Sorry dear! :S
I have a battle to fight with meowmeow later :(((
SAVE ME!! :(

FRIDAY IS SHOPPING DAY! ^^

Yes! I went shopping again.
but I didn't spend more than a hundred dollars this time round.
See I soooo guai?
Hehs.
But then again, I didn't get what I wanted to buy.
I wanted to get a nice dress.
Tried this dress.
Was so tempted to buy.
It's forty bucks.
But..it's like so sweet.
I guess.. I'll spoil the look of it.
BUTTTTTTT! I really feel like buying it.
Hehs. But nvm la..
And so, my harvest for today was, two short denim skirts plus one slogan tee.
Sighs. Didn't buy those stuffs I wanted to buy.

I am feeling emo.
Later, can compose another emo piece.
WEEEEEE.. that's the only thing I like about being emo.

alrighty thursday.

Hmmmm.
Two happy things happened today.
I have just gotten my first birthday pressie.
From my pri two girlgirl.
She bought a very cute bookmark for me.
Not very ex; but don't you agree that it's very heartwarming of her?
Perhaps, I am too easily contented.
But I really think she's sweet.

Second highlight of the day,
MEOWMEOW PASSED HIS MATHS.
AN IMPROVEMENT FROM THIRTY-ONE MARKS TO FIFTY-ONE MARKS!! ^^
Yesyesyes. I am indeed very happy about that :D

TML's SHOPPING DAAAAAAY!!!!!
WOOHOO! ^^

for happiness.

I love you.

random

This week is passing so slowly.
Urgh.
People are alrdy getting a few letters here and there.
Whilst my mailbox is still empty.
How pathetic CAN! :(
It's making me rather depressed, if you ask me.
Nahs.. I am not giving myself stress.
My dad is.
How not to feel depressed man!

I WANT A GETAWAY!
I NEED A HOLIDAY AWAY FROM EVERYTHING.

Second post of the day.
I am finally HOME SWEET HOME!
Tuition was horrible today.
Meowmeow nearly pushed me to my limits.
Only gave him warning missiles.
See? I am so merciful.
I am not all that mean; just don't do things too overboard.

Sheeshhhh!!!!!! It's only ten days till BOYFREN'S BDAY!!
And nothing seems to be really completed.
I should be finishing 3/4 of MISSION IMPOSSIBLE by saturday.
Or at the very least, 1/2.
I don't like last minute things man.
Shucks!!
I wanna give my boyfren a good birthday present this year:)

OH! ZIN HTET! RMB MY PRESSIE OK!
I'LL BE WAITING!! :DDDDDD

Monday Blues

I am having the Monday Blues..
Yesterday was the longest working hours I had.
FOURTEEN HOURS!
Goodness.
And today is another long day ahead.
Guess I will only be home at eleven plus again :(
How sad can!
BUsyBusy week ahead!
HELP! I cant wait for friday:(

Monday Blues

I am having the Monday Blues..
Yesterday was the longest working hours I had.
FOURTEEN HOURS!
Goodness.
And today is another long day ahead.
Guess I will only be home at eleven plus again :(
How sad can!
BUsyBusy week ahead!
HELP! I cant wait for friday:(

taxingday

It's going to be a rather taxing day.
Sighs.
What to do?
I cant wait for the nxt six hours to pass.
AHHHHHHHHHHH.
I very sleepy nehs..
I WILL SURVIVE!! :S

A good beginning! ^^

Yes! TOday is a GREAT day!
I DID IT! haha.
Finally finished 1/4 of my mission impossible.
Had oni few pathetic hours of sleep.
Thank God, my kid's mother called to tell me to go over only around one plus.
And thus, I got to sleep in more! :DDDDDDD
So happy!

OH wells.. I do hope tml hurry up come and go.
It wil kind of mark the end of the four busy days in a row.
Though I stil have tuition on sat n sun.. But Those are handleable.
And yes, Boyfren's coming to my house for dinner on Friday:)
I MISSSSSSSH YOU! :(

borrring

It's a boring labour day for me!
Had tuition today.
Didn't get to see Jerjer.
Sighs. I am dying of the routined life.
Can anyone tell me the what baby's breath represents? :)

:D

I love my boyfreN~
Yesterday, he came over to find me.
And got dragged by me to Kbox.
hehs. I know it isn't his favourite having to go with me.
So poor thing. Guess I was the only one having all the fun.
Oh! My tingting works there is sooooooo nice!
I am so going to go ther often!!^^
Then went Kpool. haha. Xin dono how to play pool.
I am a useless, disappointing gf.
BUT BOYFREN! I WANA TELL YOU THIS!
Someday, I'll learn it *winkx*
Hmmm.. Then we went back Causeway Point for a night movie.
We bought lots of food into the cinema, as I was really HUNGRY!
But it was a bad decision made by me.
'cause the movie made me feel like puking!!! *bleahss:(*
My boyfren was so busy enjoying the movie lahs.
It's his kind of movies.. Not mine:/

Euro Funfair is back lers!
I wanna go on the Ferris Wheel! ^^

KNOW ME! ^^

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

SIXTEEN!

We are SIXTEEN!! ^^
*blinkblink*

`forever mahs?

I need time

Two nights of crying in a row
I am feeling both emotionally and physically weak alrdy.
*sighs* I am still confused.

stupidstomach

Today's a rather okay day.
Hehs. But tuition was abit off for me.
I flared up at the kids.
Yes. Me flared up.
'Cause they were so not serious about their work.
Oh wells.
Maybe, I just have no patience with the kids bahs.
No motherly-characteristics.
*bleahs*

Met Junhao Kor for dinner @lot one.
SHIT lah. I forgot that I shldn't be eating spicy stuffs/or even stuffs without chilli in it.
*reminisces*
hmm.. Not that I missed whoever lahs.
But I guess.. I am really dependent on people.
HMMS.. Must learn to be independent.
Ahh wells.. Back to the dinner.
Had a nice chat with Kor.
Then I realised there was another Junhao nearby.
goodness me! It's the duno-how-many-times I have seen him this month.
Chatting with Kor was nice.. but something's amiss somehow.
As though he's hiding sth from me.
*shrugs* don't like the feeling of it.
Bought Bubble tea, then we walked around 'cause no place to sit.
Then I saw a junior. *I forgot his name. hehs*
Nice guy.. he was so blurly walking around..
Poor guy.. Must be under too much stress :/

Then Home Sweet Home.
I think the kids' germs are getting to me.
My immune is going down!
Help! :(

One Word

Disappointment.

I expect too much, I guess.

My supposedly Off-day.
But I have tuition in approx a hr later.
It's a new student.
A primary two girl.
It will go well, I guess?
I have been longing for a little girl to teach, haven't I?
*smiles*

I know I shouldn't be having negative thoughts.
But, today I woke up, feeling a little disappointed.
'Cause, initially, I was so looking forward to today.
But ended up, plans were changed.
And, I will not be attending Night Jaunt with my boyfriend.
Not anymore:/
'Cause this year is the last one.
What a disappointment!
No worries! I am okay!

Somehow, I find life too routined for me now.
At times, I think I am daydreaming.
Perhaps, my ideal state of happiness is just simply too far from reality.
Perhaps, I am thinking too much?
Rawrr! I need surprises!

Thursday Again :)

Its Thursday Again.
Meaning tomorrow would be my off-day.
But for tml, I won't be having any rest!
'Cause I just took up another student.
Hey! I didn't do it willingly! I'm not that hard-up for cash anyway.
This new kid seems desperate for a teacher
and the mum just forcefully talked me into accepting the task of teaching the kid for a month.
But yups, tml's gg to be an exception that I won't be resting.
Gona fit the new kid into other days.
I love myself alot d! :D

Did nothing much today.
Boyfren came over to find me after his EVENTFUL nightout.
He came and slept at my living room after reading some books -__-
He left after I woke him up and asked him to go home to sleep instead.
-____-
And then I slacked around..
Cooked maggi mee.
Got pricked by a prawn ! :( Its hurting stil! :((((
Watched tee vee and chatted on msn until it was time to leave the house for tuition.
Meowmeow is sick today.
He's like dying lahs.
He didn't know I had arrived and had been settled comfortably watching teevee :S
Poor meowmeow.
I would feel terribleterrible if I were like that too.
*prays hard that I won't get his germs*

And it's finally home sweet home for me! :)
Feeling kind of giddy.
Heavy heavy head :/
I think I didn't sleep enuff lahs.
Yes! It must be! I WILL NOT fall sick! :D

AJC concert @esplanade.

The concert was a blast! :D
Goodness! The vibes from the choir was simply great! :)
Loves the music pieces *melts*
Loves their costumes.. SO NICE! :)
Seeing them onstage, made me tear.
I missed being ther.
It reminded me of the regrets I had when I chose to keep up choir for something worthless.
Call me stupid.
I know it myself :(
Though at times sacrifices have to be made in order for better things to come, but I have learnt, that at times, I shouldn't let my heart rule my actions anymore.

THIS POST IS FOR YOU!

JEREMY LIM!
This post is for you.
Thanks for accompanying me today.
Yaya.. I know that phrase has been used umpteen times by me lers.
But, really.
Thank you.
Thanks for tolerating me.
At times, I can be really hard to handle.
Especially my unreasonable and terrible-vegetable moodswings.
Thanks for giving in to me all the time.

There were many occasions like today.
That, I got so upset that I just want to be alone.
So upset, that I just asked you to ignore me.
But never once, you let me cry alone.
You called almost immediately each time.
To make sure that I was okay.
And then, make time to come find me despite your busy schedule for the day.
I don't know why.
It's as though you read my mind and know that I needed someone around.
Perhaps, you did it knowingly/unknowingly.. But really, thanks amillion dear:)

JEREMY LIM!
I want to let you know,
I really really love you:)
And thanks for all the little things you do, just to make me happy:)
*hugs*

Busy MOnday :D

Was going to update this yesterday.
But I was kind of tired ysd when I reached home.
Hmm.. Cancelled tuition yesterday.
As in postponed to friday! there goes my holiday:(
Ah wells.. Me met ster at wlds ctrl with the BIGBIG board which caused me to be even more clumsier than ever!
Went to write msges on it and stick the nice HAPPY BIRTHDAY MINGHONG wordings on it.
Then we headed off to Mh's place.
Ster got the wrong block lo!
Bleahs!
Mh was shocked when he saw us.
*evil grin*

mh gav us a treat@ foodcourt after much struggling with us.
Was so full that I felt nauseous:(
Went met up with Jer and his family :)
We went to Swensens for deserts.
SEE?!! Its not me being a glutton!
I am always ard people who want to go eat stuffs that I like!
ITS NOT ME!! :D
Hehs.

* ... *

Urms. Finally I finished doing all the stuffs I need to do.
I washed clothes with the washing machine for the FIRST TIME by MYSELF :D
Achievement eh?
Then Me went watch tee vee.
Then I realised Daddy's fish were swimming close to the surface of the water.
Then I realised the water pump for the tank was SPOILT.
*then I PANICKED*
I actually changed and cleaned the tank all by MYSELF! ^^
So Proud of myself.
I'm falling in love with myself le :DDDD

Ah.. Anewaes, today went meet up with Gene n Flor.
Kinda last-min.
Whoa!
I must say..my acting skills have improved tremendously.
Gave Gene his early bday surprise @ Pizzahut.
Seriously, Pizzahut should give me a VIP card lorhs :D
Oh wells. Glad that Gene's happy about tt :)
HAPPY EARLY BDAY EUGENE TOH! ^^

*sighs*

*sighs*
I just read something.
I feel sad.
Sad for my parents.
What have they done to ever deserve to be treated like that by their very own son?
This son of theirs simply don't know whats gratitude.
All he knew, was to rebel.
All he knew, was that his friends are so nice to him.
Ya right. Go and live with them then.
See how many will take you in.
My daddy and mummie give in to him so much, yet he doesn't know how to appreciate it.
Seriously, is this son inhumane or what?
I feel heartbroken for my parents. :(

PAYDAY!

~lalala
Its pay day today! WEEEEEE..
But I spent like more than half of it within an hr:(
CAN YOU IMAGINE ME SPENDING 360 bucks all in an hr?!! :/
I don't find it believeable lahs.
nono.. I am no spendthrift.
Bought necessities, a new sweater and diamond earrings for jer's mummie.
Went Osim to ask about upapa.
ITS 368bucks lahs.
Nearly bought it as I was kinda rash in my decisionmaking all the time:/
But yups, I chose to bank in the rest of my money to prevent myself from buying things out of temptations :D

I MISS YOU TOO CELEST!! ^^

sianned

It's such an awfully boring day lah!
I stayed home for the WHOLE day 'cause of some lastminute change in plans:/
Played Xbox for the whole day.
Now got headache le lorhs :'( *sobs*
Ate dinner.
Then Boyfren just called to ask me out for movie.
BUT THERE IS NO NICE MOVIES:(
Besides, he had already watched Mr Bean's Holiday with his family.
Guess I would go watch it by myself on Sunday bah :)
I need a good comedy after all those frightful experiences! :)

OH! I am giving myself a BIG BIRTHDAY PRESSIE :DDDDDD
SHO HAPPY!

BIG FAT SAD UNSMILEY

I HAD A BAD DAY!
Hmm.. OK. Abit unjust in that statement.
My day had been great with Boyfren popping by for a visit:)
It was all fine and wonderful until I got on my way to work!

THE STALKER FREAKED ME OUT REAL BAD!
我被吓到我几乎崩溃。
我第一被吓得尖叫出来。
第一被吓的脸青唇白。
真不是滋味！
虽说要对人宽容，但我的本性，
我就是咽不下这口气。
也你们会觉得我太小提大作，
但我真的不能忍受这种社会人渣！
请你们原谅我。

*Today's a much much better day!*

Today ish definitely a much better day!
After yesterday, I intend to get ppl to send me home if ever they want me out late.
I was SO freaked out ysd.
:(
Thanks to all who really cared :)
I am so blessed to have you people :)

ARGH! I still have FIVE more freaking days till my PAYDAY.
Urgh. Seriously, I can't wait:/

*smiles*

We are FIFTEEN MONTHS lers :D
*smiles*
Too bad, we didn't get to spend it together.
But yups! Happy Fifteen Month-sery, Jer! :D

:((((((((

I fell in love with something.
Take note: It's something, not somebody.
ARGH. and I can't get it out of my head.
Sheesh.. This is not good :'(

HOME!

I cut my Hair today.
Jerjer's mummie cut for me.
Nice nice nice.
Now my head is abit lighter.
WEEEEEEE!
Jerjer's mummie also cut his hair.
Shortshort hair now, but stil cute :D
*grins*
Didn't do anything much today :'(
Mummy took away my passport again! :(
They don't want me clinging to Jerjer every now and then :((((((
*sighs*

Now got BAD headache.
Must be the stupid rain just now.
I was kind of drenched by the time I got home.
*ah-choo* :(

*Shui Jiao Day!*

Nopes.
Not sleeping day.
Its dumplings :DD
Stupid blogger.
I can't even see my own blog! :(
HELP!! :'(

Back to blogging proper

Ok. I think you people have had enuff of my zi lian-ness.
Oh wells. Those were my happy times spent with boyfren! *loves*
Boyfren actually made those picts into a movie.
It's so nice lah!
THANKYOU BOYFREN!
*though I didn't think he made it especially for me* :/

Went for tuition with meowmeow today.
He happily came n told me that he passed eng for the first time.
Hmm.. Ok.. If I lower my expectations, I wud be extremely happy abt it :)
Jer said he's proud of me! :)
Ah wells.. I do hope that things will get better along the way:)

MORE randomness!

MOO-MOO!
Xin n Sweet Rachel *she is a little snow white!*

Xin n Jer *not acting cute k?! we are just sad that we're leaving:(*

CAUGHT RED-HANDED! * they were flirting lahs* (Jealous!)

MOREMOREMORE!

With you around, I'll never be alone again :)

See? My boyfren SHO happy! :DD

Boyfren trying to take picture of us with the kite flying:)

Jiaxin n Jeremy :) *my favourite pic of the lot*

Row..row..row your boat gently down the stream.......... :D

MORE!!

Cousin Hao n Xin :D

Boyfren, Me n My Aunt :D

My POPO n ME! :D
OK. This is the camera-shy guy whu cried a couple of times before smiling this way:/

MORE PICTURES!! :DD

OK. I admit. That's me>.<

A PLAYGROUND in the midst of the wet market! *WHEE*
(I actually resisted the temptations to go play)*

BIG EYED FISH-IES O.O

A HOT "BABE" *WEE-u-WEE*

The VeGGIe-SeLLer! :Pp
*It's just my boyfren being helpful with the groceries*

MORE PICTURES!! :DD

Another beach. Boyfren So happY :D
Xin n Jeremy *My mEssY hair! ARGH! It's too WINDY! :'(*
Boyfren Flying Kite :DD *nice background ma?*
Ever seen such a pretty beach ?? :DD

PICTURES! :DDDDDD

Xin n Jer (before setting off) :D

At the beach!! :D

JerJer and the Doggie :D *who's cuter?*

JerJer and another doggie *my favourite of the two*
(Psst! I still think my boyfren is cuter:D)

Xin n HongHong, my cousin *he's camera-shy like ME!*

*BACK FROM A GREAT TIME!*

*clears up cobwebs*
I M FINALLY BACK FROM A GREAT TIME WITH MY BOYFREN!
Spent approx. five days in Msia with my Boyfren!
My boyfren is SOOOOOOOO nice!
Taking such good care of me all the while:DDDD
It was FUN..
FUN
FUN
AND MORE FUN!

Went visit @ my granny and stayed there.
Urms.. the conditions were quite bad.
I couldn't quite stand it; not to say my Boyfren.
Poor Boyfren.. I am feeling kinda bad for letting him come with me.

But the highlights of it all, was the BEAUTIFUL BEACHES!!
And my uncle lent us a car to drive ard in:)
ANd so, we were able to go lotsa places!
At the beautiful beaches, I was so glad..
That, I was at the right place with the right person:)
I LOVE YOU BOYFREN!
To MY BOYFREN: Thankyou for accompanying for these five days,
it's been tough on you given the condiitions,
But really, you're the best !!
Thankyou for being there :D
I LOVE YOU! ^^

Pictures will be uploaded as soon as my boyfren finishes sending them to me
They are PRETTY PICTURES, mind you! :D *grins*

*Grieving*

Got back results yesterday.
And I've gotten poor results.
So, don't ask about what I've gotten.
I'm still grieving over them.
Though I know it's no use doing that at all.
But the pent-up sadness in me just hasn't gotten full relief.
*shrugs*
I feel like goin to the beach.. :/

Nonetheless, I wana thank ppl for their concern.
Esp my boyfren, whom I think I had made so worried about me.
Thank you jer,
Thank you fer keep me company..
from getting results..
to patiently wait fer me to stop tearing outside the hall..
to gg to kbox with me..
to sending me home..
to pei me go home n face my family..
THank you boyfren..
I can never thank you enuff.. :/
And no, I won't throw you away just because of a stupid paper.
*sigh* I'll be ok de.
Go have fun with your friends in KL bahs!
I am ok! :)

*happy,tiring,boring day*

Its a happy, fun, tiring and boring day for me.

Happy.
'Cause I got to meet up with Jerjer.
'Cause I got to spend time with him.
'Cause I got to watch Norbit with Boyfren.
'Cause Boyfren was really sweet enough to hang around longer,
so tt I cld see him fer a longer time.
'Cause Boyfren was really sweet to drive me to my tuition place,
knowing how much of an direction-idiot I am.

Fun.
'Cause Christopher came with KimSia and some other guys to play cards again.
They were a whole of fun people.
'Cause they were so funny,
kept on calling me "jiejie" n my boyfren as "jie fu".
I didn't know that I have so many illegitimate brothers mans.
'Cause I got to watch Boyfren play cards with them.
Nahs. Don't ask me why I didn't play.
I lack Luck when gambling during New Year.

Tiring.
'Cause I didn't sleep well ysd nite.
Only slept lyke for two solid hrs ONLY.
And I didn't have a chance to rest.
Not tt I really mind..
Spending time with BOYFREN is more important:)

Boring.
That.....nonetheless, refers to my tuition with MeowMeow.
*sighs*
Here's the dialogue..
Tutor: Hi. Long time no see.
*tutor starts flipping assessment books*
MeowMeow: Uhh.. I've school homework. You need to help me.
Tutor: Ohh? Bring it here then.
MeowMeow: Its my favourite homewrk..
Tutor: Ohh? Really? What's it?
MeowMeow: It starts with.. "C"
Tutor : Compo?
MeowMeow: Ya! BIngo!
*Tutor faints*
You guys can nv understand the pain of doing compo with MeowMeow.
Its rather torturous :'(

But then again, I'm happy.
'Cause I love spending time with my boyfren! :D

*23FEB'07*

Yupsyups.
Wanted to blog last night.
But I was too tired to do so.
Hah..
Yesterday morn, Boyfren came over to my place to Bai Nian.
Mummie went out, leaving Jer to face my Daddy with me.
So poor thing.
SO glad tt Boyfren cld chat properly with Daddy.
Nan de, Nan de.
Was so shocked tt when Boyfren mentioned his sch openhse stuffs,
And my daddy actually asked him to bring me. o.O"
My daddy normally wun say such nice things.
WHoa.. my boyfren's such a gd convincer.
And my Daddy even gave me permission to go Jerjer's place to Bai Nian.
*high till I faint*

And so, we had lunch at home.
Then, I changed and we left for Jer's place.
Greeted his mummie and godsis.
Then Boyfren forced me to eat AGAIN.
*faints*
Went slacked ard fer awhile.
Then helped out clearing up Jer's room.
Discovered sth in his notebook, made me laugh till I stomach pain!
Didn't noe my boyfren can be so CUTE. :D
Tough Springcleaning.
Den slacked ard again..before having steamboat fer dinner.
*yumyum* :D
Iam such a glutton ysd.
IF i grow ane fatter, please blame my boyfren. :DDD

Conclusion: MY BOYFREN CLEARED ALL THE STAGES WITH FLYING COLORS! :DDDDDD

:S

Hmm.. Seriously, CNY is all that special this year.
Its kinda borrrrrring for me.
OK. With the exception of a hectic yesterday.
I had tuition from early morn till evening.
After which, I rushed home only to find that christopher and the rest are alrdy at my place.
Didn't gamble with them at first.
Then I rushed out to meet Boss and esther.
Ate Earthquake @ Swensens.
*yummielicious!*
Den went home.
Everyone wus stil gambling lahs.
O.o
Then I cldn't resist the temptations to gamble.
And so, I sat dwn..
ANd wa-la! I lost more than 50 bucks.
AND I BLAME ALL OF THEM FOR NT PLAYING BLACKJACK! :/

yayness.. Today's baba's birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABA!

*happy chinese new year :D *

Hellos!
Happy Chinese New Year ppL!
Hmms.. Today's a rather eventful day for me :D
And it all happened because I wasn't having perfect vision today.
First.. I met up with the other two no-lifers @ Mac to rot our day awae:/
There was this guy whu had been sitting diagonally to my view,
fer a very long time.
So I mentioned to Flor: " eh those two had been staring at each other fer a long long time."
FLor looked over and noticed his legs.
Yea.. He's got nice legs.
Den.. as I stared harder, 'cause he looked really familiar
on second look.
You noe what?!
He's actually YING HAO!
Haha.. Goodness me! I actually took such a long time to figure out.

Oh! As we were leaving lotone,
I was trying to persuade the gurls to go ride on this really cute mobiles for kids..
But luckily we didn't.
I'll tell you why.
We walked to the ctrl station.
Was saying bye to flor.
Then suddenly flor nudged me and asked if sum guy wus JS.
I dramatically looked ard.
But I cldn't see aneone with close resemblence cause I was really blind.
Then as me n peipei were abt to enter the gates.
This guy sitting by the corner waved and smiled.
And I stupidly PAUSED, stood there and Stared hard.
And finally, I realised its really AH SHENG.
Wahaha..
I'm really weird today.

* Happy Valentine's Day! *

I had a great Valentine's Day!
Boyfren came over to sg.
HE PONNED SCH LAHS!
Sho bad.. but..since he's so sweet,
he's forgiven for that.
He gave me a beautiful watch from Esprit!! :D
SO NICE!! *loves*
You ppl shld know me de lahs..
I've never lyke to wear watches.
But my boyfren had gotten such a sweet gift,
it's simply unresistable to nt wear it:)
*hugs my boyfren*
Gave him his card and the keychains!
Urms.. Dunno if he really lyke them.

Boyfren played O2jam while I prepared to go out.
Haha.. He lost to me!
*bleahs*
Went CWP watch "the matrimony".
Nxt time, I wun choose movies lers.
It was sucky! It's one of the few movies that even Boyfren duno what it's abt.
*pouts*
Went walked ard CWP with Boyfren.
Long time nvber been there with BOyfren.
It's so fun lahs.
With my boyfren ard, everything's so much more fun.
*happysmiles*

Went eat BakKuteh for dinner.
Stupid me lahs!
Whenever I enjoy myself too much, I just forget impt stuffs lyke my gastric flu.
I wasn't supposed to take anething heavy or dense in taste.
I can only take bland food:/
Oh wells.. after eating.. on the way back to the car.
I just threw up all the contents.
*eeeewwwwww*
I must have given Jer a bad shock.
I just spoilt the date lahs!
Stupid me! Stupid Stomach!
Went slacked @ wdls park, listening to songs in the car.
My boyfren very cute de nehs! :X

OH wells.. I had a great Vday!
DUnno if boyfren feels the same way too.
BOYFREN!! I LOVE YOU.
WILL WE BE HAVING EVEN MORE, and GREAT VDAYS TO COME? :D

*totally worn!!*

My eyes are so close to shutting right now.
They have been so since morning.
I nearly cldn't drag myself out of bed.
SO SHAGGED!! :(
Horrible nehs!! :'(
Went for morning tuition.
Was rather slacked.
The Taiwanese Family gave me two boxes of Bengawan Solo pineapple tarts,
and a FIFTY dollars angbao.
My first angbao of the year! :D
Very paiseh..but I'm happy :D

Tuition with MEOWMEOW in the evening.
HOrrible nehs.
Made me cry.. :(
He threw the basketball at me THRICE!
Real hard somemore.
Don't think I didn't run or scream.
HE CHASED AFTER ME.
WTH! Seriously..he's a retard with a SUPER LOW EQ, can!
I know I sound very evil.
But.. try being hit by a hard basketball HARD, plus no one actually try to help me! :(
I stil hafta hold back my tears..
But I just cldn't take it when I reached the bus stop.
URGH! Never felt so pissed before! :(

*busybusyday ahead*

I'm going to have a BUSY day tml!
Morning goin tuition.
Gona tutor for THREE SOLID HRS.
Then.. blame my stupid mouth for agreeing to go to the NTU talk with FLOR.
*faints*
I will be so lacking sleep lahs:(
Then at night still got Class BBQ.
Hopefully, I'll have the energy to last me thru the day till I get home.
*prays hard*
I'm going to sleep early tonight.
o.O this isn't my idea of a saturday night:(

Hmmmm.. Jus now went walkwalk-ed alone.
Really found that feeling very horrible lorhs.
Hmms... Realised that, as Vday draws near,
you see guys flooding giftshops, jewellery shops, flower shops..
Just now, I overheard two guys choosing necklaces..
Rather sweet.. but can see tt they know nuts abt what to choose.
Very tempted to help them.
But..I'm not that nice a person lahs :D

*melancholy*

Bitbit down.
Yesterday night, was penning my tots into a shortshort story again.
Its a darn sad storyline again.
I'm an emo writer.
*bleahs*
But I think if people read that story,
you'll be understanding towards my emo-ness bahs.

`I duno why.
I am scared.
I don't wanna just be a passerby.

*Big Grin*

I am a happy gurl today too!
'Cause I got to meet up with Jerjer.
Though, it wus for a short short time..
But, its better than nothing lorhs!
My Boyfren really means alot to me de! :D

`something struck me. I feel abit bad.

* I HAVE THE BESTEST BOYFREN !! *

Heex.. Yupyups.
I just wanna exclaim..
I HAVE THE BESTEST BOYFREN!
*grins*
Oh wells.. Ysd I went to attend Cousin's wedding.
Boyfren came to pick me up from the Customs.
I feel kinda guilty that he always hafta drive me ard :/
Went eat @ his fren's shop.
*yummielicious*
Then, we proceed to my Cousin's place to meet my mummie, my aunts and my uncles.
BUT! I got us LOST.
Hehs.. Jerjer had to make lots of turns before we got the plc right.
*bleahs* I'm a hopeless road idiot :'(

Was kinda bored there.
We were just listening to the adults chatting.
Lucky, my boyfren was around lahs.
At least, I had his company.
We were communicating between ourselves thru msges.
Heex..
Then after I got changed, Jerjer drove us down to the restaurant.
Alas, too bad the invitation came too late, else Jerjer cld haf attended the wedding with me :(
* BIG SAD FACE*

The wedding wus normal.
But the bride is extremely gorgeous!! :D
And her hubby wus quite gdlooking too.
They were so compatible lahs!
SO happy for my COusin! :D
Talked to my Cousin Bro.
Got ppl tot we were an couple.
Ridiculous!
Its been ages since we last chatted or even meet up.
Glad that he's doing well.
Seeing the newlywed..
it made me so wanna married lahs.
oh gosh..I m mad.

Boyfren came to pick us up to send us to customs.
I was in the backseat,
hopelessly staring at him..
Heex.. Duno why..
I just can't help doing it.
But you all know sth?
I really really felt happy just staring at my boyfren :D
I love my BOyfren!! :D

*dreaming*

Am feeling moody as per normal.
Feel very alone these days,
even though I'm surrounded by so many ppl.
I just don't really feel very alive.
I feel extremely empty for some unknown reasons.
Hopeless me.
*sighs*
I guess I wudn't be seeing boyfren tml lers.
Daddy's going.
Sianned.

I had a weird dream last night.
It's a happy dream to me.
Somehow, I wished for it to come true..
even though, I knew it wud nv will... :/

*lovesfebruary*

Happy February!
Hmms.. Tuition wus VERY horrible today.
So.. I'm not goin to mention anething abt how pissed I wus.
My day was made so much better,
after meeting up with my darling Esther and gd bro, Minghong.
Was reading magazines while waiting for the both of them to finish up chemistry.
Its been so long since I last stepped into the library.
And I mean, REALLY LONG!
:S
My eyes were almost popping out while I looked at the lovely chocs and accessories in the mags.
*high*
They are simply so gorgeous.
Oh dear.. I think I'm addicted to pretty things.

After the librarian chased us out,
we went Macs to yumcha.
Me n Ster were fighting with ah hong over the payment.
So funny!
Its been so long since we three last met up tgr.
Its a great happy feeling being with them.
I laughed and smiled alot.
Today's a happyhappy day.
Wish for everyday to be like this.

Oh wells! I've a list of things that I want for Vday.
But nopes, not listing them here.
Its just "wants"
I prefer people to get heartwarming gifts for me! if ever anyone is buying things fer me lahs

`I miss you honey!!
Very very very much..
and I really wished you can attend the wedding with me this saturday.

*idunowhatimanemore*

I duno what I am anymore.
No reason to smile.
I am feeling sad.
Lonely.
I wanna be happy.
WHY LIDAT? :'(
Inside my heart, its as cloudy as the night sky tonight..
I wish it wud pour inside my heart..
let all the unhappiness in me be washed awae.. :/

*beautiful day*

I went shopping today!
Finally got my dress!
First thing: its white!
Second thing: its not short!
Its a decent n pretty dress *loves*
Today's such a beautiful day!
Oh! Me n flor saw mdm khoo at Far East.
Chatted with her..n inform her abt the release of my results.
Her reactions was so CUTE nehs! :D
Popped by Taka to visit my darling Peipei.
Miss her so muchie lahs.
Yes! Outing soon! As soon as I've got everything sorted out.

Went for tuition after watching my fav drama halfway.
So relieved that the gurl's SMART.
As in, really!
Thank God! :)
The walk home was kinda lonely.
The night breeze wus freezing COLD!
But, the night sky was gorgeous tonight.
Full of prettypretty stars!! *loves*
If only . . . . . .
*sighs*

*second post on the same day*

Hmms. Sian.
Life's boring.
*URGH!*
Minghong called me just now,
on my way to tuition.
So nice! Long time nvber tok to him.
Tuition's ok today.
At least, he didn't attempt to drive me mad.
Thank God! :)

The journey home was so lonely,
so COLD today.
Was thinking abt things.
Was thinking abt my boyfren.
*sighs*
I seem to be thinking abt him everywhere I go.
ANd everywhere seems to remind me of him :'(
*sighs*
Ya, I'm feeling sad.
I just miss my boyfren, thats all.
*sighs*

*Payday!*

Yayness.
I just got my first pay!
not alot, I know.
Hehs. Giving it to mommie for her to spend:)
I dun wanna be lyke my STUPID ******* brother!
Who f**kingly throws awae money lyke dirt, and keeps taking money from my parents.
Who f**kingly has no brains to go spend time with his bad company of chao ah bengsn ah lians.
And all they do, is to smoke lyke chimney tops all day long.
*urgh*
Can't stand it man.
*urgh*
I pity my parents.
What an useless son they haf! :(

Tml most probably goin shopping with flor!
Yayness! I'm so going to get my dress tml!
YES! no matter wat! :D
*grins*

Hmms. Hmms. I have to save up alot alot!
Save up to go music school.
Save up to buy a doggie so tt I wun be so lonely.
Save up enuff to bring my parents n my sister for a trip.
Save up to buy nicenice stuffs for boyfren.
And also, save up enuff to pamper myself:)

`I'm getting so lonely nowadays..that I haf forgotten how to smile.

*xin loves shopping!*

Heex.
Its a tiring shopping day.
I wus out since morning.
Had two tuitions.
Before going to find von @ bishan.
Wus looking for pretty dresses.
Tried on alot.
Very nice!!
If only, I had money to buy all of them.
Hehs.
Poor von.. hafta tolerate the long time I took.
Ended up I didn't buy any dresses.
sobs!!
But! I bought a new pair of white pumps!
prettypretty!

Hmms.. Oh by the way, me n von met sarah in the toilet @ Wisma.
SO cool lah.
hmms. OH! And the guys are out from tekong today!
WEE~

`falling really sick. :/

* :( *

SICK!

my fever refuses to leave me!
it likes me too much man!
SIAN!
Oh wells.
I took up my fourth student today.
TWO more nights down.
Meaning I won't be able to catch my fav drama - Let it shine.
*sobs*
How sad, right?
hmm.. I'm NOT money-crazy!
Just that, I wanna change the situation I am in.
So.. I'm not going for material needs definitely!

`i think i might be lovesick. :'( to my hubby! : We're turning one year and a month lers! :D if u still rmb lahs.. `All My Life I Prayed For Someone Like You ,


& I Thank God That I Finally Found YOU :) *huggies*

*horriblehorriblehorrible!*

I'm SICK!
ya..I know.. Not again!!
Sian-ned lahs.
Feeling so horrible.
I need hugs.
BADLY :/
*sighs*
But all I can hug, are my soft toys :(

*monday blues*

Alrights.
Its a boring monday afternoon now.
Went out early in the morn to angmokio.
And I got lost on my way home.
How clever uh?

Life's boring.
Nothing exciting is happening at all.
I can't even find boyfren.
*sighs*
Life's kinda dead for me.
I need excitements.
I need surprises!
BADLY! :/

*home sweet home finally*

I am finally home.
Have been feeling real sick since morning.
SO awful lahs.
I think I am down with stupid gastrics flu! :(
Being a tutor,
is physically taxing,
mentally draining,
braincells draining,
cash depleting.. :/

`I was really touched when you called to show your concern,
to make sure tt I didnt get wet in the rain.
My boyfren is so sweet!!
You're the best lers!! :D

*i need a REAL job!*

I seriously need a REAL JOB!
*urgh*
Hmms. I nidda be occupied!
Need sth to keep me busy.
So that my mind wun wander.
So tt I wun disturb boyfren so much.
I need a REAL JOB!!

`I am feeling small.. :/

:)

Xin went to find her hubby today.
The rain was horrible vegetable lahs.
I was drenched the moment I stepped out of the msia customs!
*sobs*
Lucky, my hubby came and picked me up soon after.
Else I wld have died of the cold.
Hmms. Didn't do anething much.
OH! I finally watch 'Night at the museum".
With my hubby summore.
*happyhappy*
Its really nice! :D
Xin loves spending time with her dear! :D

Hmms.
Today oso the day when Zester, Jiesheng and Sengpeng enter NS.
And not to forget Weiquan who is goin in tml.
All the best guys!
I think all of them will have no problem surviving ;D

`i miss my boyfren alrdy!!

*DEAD TIRED*

I LEARNT MY LESSON!
Never ever try to be so gungho..
>.< *bleahs*
I am suffering the "fruits" of my rashness.
Or rather brainlessness? :/
I am dead tired now.
Brain cells totally wiped out.
*sighs* I kinda realised that I can't work miracles.
:S *confused Xin*

Isn't this blissfully sweet?
Can we be penguins too?

*3rdJanuary2006*

Todae's school reopening fer all.
WHile I'm rotting at home.
For the rest of my friends are working.
And I'm dateless.
SHO PATHETIC.
Gosh.. Been feeling sosososo bored for the whole dae.
Seriously, I don't have the mood to work lehs.
Don't know why.
When I'm the weirdo whu thinks working is fun.
But hor.. Rotting too much can be very unhealthy.
I need a life.
*grins*

`dislikes being neglected, dislikes being taken for granted. but who am i to say anething?